Do you ever wonder about the convoluted nature of life?

I have, and do, and as usual, my conclusions make sense to me. Is that scary, or what? As my mind seems to do, it comes to a conclusion quickly, knowing without really knowing how I know. It is strange, but feels most normal. At any rate, convoluted seems to explain all of life, a great connection, a coil, a spiral, where everything is connected.

Convolutions always seemed weird to me, until this moment when I realized that it is the way life is connected, the way we reap what we sow, the way drama is, the way life unfolds, what we create for all the reasons we create and in all the ways we create, all of us, from the most innocent to the most out at the fringe kind of person.

I think of the luxury honesty is, and of those who cannot afford the luxury of being honest because their lives do not cooperate with mainstream life. And I think of how mainstream life is meaningless, and just as convoluted in another way. I think of growth and how it always seems to spiral, arriving at a place of knowing something only to forget and revisit it again as if I have coiled around to the same place again, maybe a little different orientation this time round.

Good reason not to judge, and to forgive, everyone, and ourselves. It's late, and maybe this doesn't make sense to many people, but to me, it does whether I am saying it succinctly or not. As diffferent as we feel we are from anyone else, in reality, we are alike. In reality, we are all coiled together in one. In this chaotic appearing life is hidden a symmetry, a perfection, that our eyes cannot see. We are love wound.

Does anyone know what I am addressing here?

(con·vo·lut·ed) (kon²vo-l[ldbomac]t¢[schwa]d) [L. convolutus] rolled together or coiled.
- an intricate pattern of endless convolutions
[1913 Webster]

coiled \coiled\ (koild), adj.
curled or wound especially in concentric rings or spirals;
as, a coiled snake ready to strike; the rope lay coiled on
the deck. Opposite of uncoiled.

Note: [Narrower terms: coiling, helical, spiral, spiraling, volute, voluted, whorled
; convolute rolled longitudinally upon itself
;curled, curled up;
involute closely coiled so that the axis is obscured)
; looped, whorled; twined, twisted;
convoluted; involute, rolled esp of petals or leaves in bud: having margins rolled inward)
; wound]

There came a time when the risk to remain tight in the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom. Anais Nin

Just found this, interesting:

Fractal Geometry, a Case in point.