Vote for ascension...anyone?

Another night is done, and soon it will be another year gone by, difficult not to reflect upon the passing of time, and the meaning of time. Until 3 years ago, I still believed I would live forever! It’s true! And I crossed that line suddenly, to the sense of my own mortality. I have been in shock! It was too quick, this sudden realization, and I have to ask you, was it that way for you too?

Now I see what I never understood, that youth think they will never die, and so they live without any true thought of it. What an eye opener! Yet….

And I have to say, for someone as idealistic as I am, it is a sad, rude awakening, and I am apt to maybe just put that thought back if I can, out of mind, because I don’t care for it a bit.

Although it,” seems,” true that every one dies, well, maybe I am not still utterly convinced it will happen to me, after all, I am a different person from anyone else, always have been, and I always will be. Maybe I will be the first, like someone was first on the moon! It could happen!
(smirk)

If you read my writings, you might think I have no sense of humor, but you must realize that much of what is typed here, or even spoken, is tongue in cheek. But then some is dead serious, and even if you were talking to me face to face, you might not know, because I have that kind of subtle humor that usually goes over every head nearby. I don’t mind, because occasionally I meet someone with a really profound sense of humor, as well, and it is so exquisite to play round with someone with a subtle sharp wit.

Age, makes one feel old! Weight makes one feel out of shape, having no money makes one feel broke, and so I guess passing that magical number in age makes one consider their mortality, even me!

Now, seriously here, I don’t want to live forever, that sounds boring to me, but neither do I wish to make the trek to the grave, even if it is just a body going there.

I wasn’t involved in Christian Science for nothing all those years, and I don’t bring Guru’s to my home so that I can just be talked about by my neighbors! I am really interested in the truth of my being, and yours!

I somehow think that if I just can deny the obvious in that truth, that it will not over power me, and that we only actually die, because we believe we are going to! Isn’t everything in the believing? My Mother used to say, “Life is great if you don’t weaken!” I didn’t know what she meant until I weakened, then it was too late! She was a big help…., her and her sayings! She died, everyone died that I came from. Early on, so how is it that I can still believe there is a chance I will not follow the same pattern?

Well I want to be the one who doesn’t believe in death. I do, I want to believe I will be rising into a different level of vibration and just ascend, I want all of us to quit this dying business and just ascend. I have felt like I was ascending once when I was in love, so why can’t it happen? I think I will just take a vote, do I have yours?