This is my first duty of the day, today, Christmas Day. Today is the day I write to my beloved…you!
If you are reading this, you have been and are, my beloved. You are a treasure that has enriched my life by your Supreme Be-ing. By actions that you cannot know how they have blest me, whether we are acquainted or not.
If you have breathed the air of this life, and exhaled, you have changed this world with your life, as every butterfly beating it’s wings, also changes the face of this in ways we cannot perceive.
If you have been invited here by me to share in my expressions, you are my beloved, some one I have shared a history with, whether small or large, you may be my family, or a friend, or an acquaintance, a new love via this web of life, but you are my beloved.
You have impacted my life with your humor; witt, creativity, your passions, your great cooking, your refreshing sense of humor, smile, or even your deep dark psychology, that may have bent my world a bit, skewed it, but you make up a multitude of experiences that the divine wants to experience, and so created …YOU!
Truth is bigger than we can imagine, it stares us in the face a thousand times every day. We deny it with our every sigh, our every wish to the contrary. Life is this big; as on the front page of the newspapers, it is in the obituaries, in the birth columns, in the personal ads, and in the marriage sections, as well as divorce sections. It is in the suicide, and the murder we read about, and the terrorism of the day.
This is life, the great truth, and we never appreciate much of this, it is even in the sports section, I say with the greatest of disdain.
Today, I will celebrate all as I celebrate you. I am grateful for you, what you have given to my life. Your faces run through my memory now; a man that called me from his travels due to work, a brilliant man, making me laugh until my face hurt, you know who you are…. a woman I was close to and still love from my early twenties who lives in Friendship, TX. I love you! I miss you! Every thought of you refreshes a smile like a new page fills my browser, but on my face and as I envision yours, and the sound of your voice, and the memory of your exuberance. It is as tho I click a mouse in my mind, and I see your many faces, one site to another…all this beauty overwhelms me.
You are all my family, my children, my parents, you are all my life. A first love, a short love, a fling, an ongoing drama so intense I can’t imagine why I am doing this. A stranger from a strange land, and faces that greet me from the beyond, so many of you there, I remember all of you with so much love. My heart is over filled with memories of you, and today I want to celebrate you.
My children, my sweet children, growing older with each passing and intangible year, as I cannot be with you, but I remember you everyday, and at night when I blow my candles out, your faces are there and I whisper my blessings to you. I send my complete love, and I know you are with me, and we cannot be less than one.
The sled ride from when I was 5, and all you who pulled sleds up that hill, you are with me today, I haven’t forgotten a single face, and I still love the snow as much as you..do.
So to all of you, new friends, old friends, departed ones, and my children, and Grandchildren, today, you may be far away geographically, but you are right here in my heart with me, right now, always have been, and always will be. I light my candles today to hold you in the great esteem of prayer, with watchful eyes of the all knowing, which WE ALL ARE.
Merry Crissmiss! 2004
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