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July 12, 2005

Nagaoka photos, remembering Japan fondly....

Would love to go visit Japan again, here are some photos from my travels there many years ago. Nagaoka, in Niigata prefecture. Anyone from Nagaoka?
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Nagaoka Castle photo by Sherry Stewart
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Koi, Niigata prefecture Japan, photo by Sherry Stewart
Being a guest in the Saito family home, I was able to visit the city and countryside of Nagaoka, and enjoy it's many wonderful people, and sites, as well as wonderful restaurants. I would love to go to a real noodle shop again and try my luck at slurping noodles.
Nagaoka in the fall is stunning. See photo...
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Daily Om

Someone sent this link to me and I love it, it is so helpful and beautiful, you must check it out! Daily OM
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July 06, 2005

My little yoga child and my budding musician..

In a few more days, John and Karen will be leaving to go back home. I think we are just getting to know each other better, feeling warm, cozy and comfy, and well, I think they belong here, close by so we can keep and eye on them, and have good times together, like water fights, etc.

Tonight Karen and I did some calligraphy, and at the moment she is surrounding herself by candles in the meditation room sitting upon a Persian rug doing bedtime yoga. (Mom will have to see to believe) Where is my camera? Honestly, I would not like to disturb her, she is really doing a great job of making a proper yoga space in which to breathe and use correct postures, using my really cool yoga book. Karen, or Princessa as we like to call her is very interested in everything, and I am so happy she decided to light candles tonight, al by herself to make this special environment.
We have many candles here, as we light them at dusk, especially in winter when days are very short, along with oil lamps. We love the change in atmosphere it creates for us, and the way it takes the chill out of the air.
I can see that Karen would begin very easily to enjoy a quiet meditative life…uuu uummm, right?
Well, she would attempt it anyway.

John is watching a movie, and eating (he has one of those bottomless pits. I should make cookies!) My oven doesn’t work, but I have a convection oven I could make a few in. He is excited about his upcoming birthday, he will be 14 next week, and he is crazy for a Marshall amp the mini set. It is 300.00 here in Seattle, and we have taken him to the music store so many times to use it, and that guitar he wants, a Gibson something, the one used by some ACDC band member. I should remember, because he talks of it so often. He has been downloading music on itunes and making a few cd’s, It thrill shim, and he plays his guitar a lot, is lost without it.
John is becoming very affectionate, and his sense of humor is widening, and he is becoming more playful with us, learning that we like to have water fights, and play innocent fun tricks, and that even bummer number 1 doesn’t mean much except a good laugh!

Karen swam tonight at the Y. She called an hour early for me to come get her, and I left, and on my way there about 3 blocks from home she asked if I had left, because she changed her mind, and wanted to swim more. I said I would come watch her, and she put her wt suit back on and swan, and I watched a read ad local paper. It was very, very nice, and I will miss taking her to swim every night from 7 to 10 pm. Last night John went, too. He usually goes with her.

I wish I had more time to take Karen someplace special, we are running out of time and I have a MD appointment tomorrow, and we have a few friends coming tomorrow to see them. I have a lot to do tomorrow, in every direction one can go in. And I need to clan house more, oh well, if it isn’t properly clean…so what? There are kids in this house! I can always blame them; see teenagers are good for something!

Karen has finished one segment of yoga, I see a relaxed difference in her already, she just walked in here, and she was calm and collected, it is amazing what a little yoga practice can do for a person. Daph., maybe you want a shrine room downstairs where the kids can go to do yoga after a bath each night before bed, that and a warm cup of chamomile tea, and they will sleep like angels, and early on.
These two do stay up very late, it is almost impossible to get them to bed, and Karen is the night owl, John falls to sleep watching a movie, but she doesn’t Yoga is perfect as a discipline for her, and It was not my idea. I merely left my yoga book out. She even remarked that she needed a room that was uncluttered and free of electronics to do her yoga.
I told her the room she is staying in is my reiki and mediation room, and it is a sort of mess now, so she chose the large hallway to practice, and is doing so well. I predict this one will become serious about yoga at some point in her life, maybe beginning soon. So Daph, and John, be prepared to make a room for this at home!
I am pleased that some influence of mine that I have not intended to make happen is rubbing off. Karen loves the house and the children’s books, Both she and John read The Garden of Abdul Gazazi by Allsburg last night.

Karen has found my abacus, it is a Japanese one, I told her she could have it if she learned to use it. It costs about 18.00. She didn’t learn how, but she took it and said she would learn how, I guess we will see.


These are two very sweet, precious children, and I want them to stay longer, and always be closer to me! But thank you Daph, and John for loaning them to us for a while to enjoy!

Vacation with kids

See my blog:
nallietravelblog.blogspot.com for more photos of ferry trip up the inside passage to Alaska, Yukon, down to BC and to Washington again.tight squeeze through passage to AKDSC02202
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Bon Voyage... Bellingham WA
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June 22, 2005

My company is here!

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John and karen have finally come again to visit, and maybe we will go to Alaska on the ferry, or maybe to Canada and Vancouver and Vancouver Island and deep sea fishing, or maybe to California. It is too late now to plan Hawaii, but I think they might have liked that idea. Anyway, I am sure we wil have a great time, maybe catch some huge halibut and king salmon, and dungeness crab, go rafting, sea kyaking, horse back riding.....EMP, Seattle, At any rate, surely we are going to have lots a fun!

June 21, 2005

Nicole and Tal's wedding in Helena

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Just returned from a long weekend in Helena where we attended Nicole and Tal’s wedding. They were married in the quarry where Nicole played growing up, and the wedding was as enthusiastic as I remember childhood being, with all the simple elements of innocence remaining, and love and appreciation showing through.

Remembering my own play world as a child, the simple and sheer happiness of decorating a small space in nature with wild flowers and some found object for a vase creating a space that was every bit as remarkable and even more enthusiastic as Mom and friends designing a home space, Nicole and Tal recreated that wonder of childhood, playfully and lovingly there at the quarry, and displayed it for all of us, and included us in it, like a magical play children would create where nothing can go wrong, (the rain was not a mistake, it was just what happened), and the rest of the wedding was woven around that, like child’s play would be.
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One reception was at the Eagles, and another followed at Greg and Laurie’s home for the next few days spent visiting with family and friends of Greg’s, and Laurie’s, Nicole’s and Tal’s.
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For me it was fun to observe the simple beauty, the kids, and spend time getting to know everyone a little better after most of the storm had calmed and the honeymooners left with their entourage of friends to go camping before a few nights alone.

Sitting in the kitchen at their home chatting with the women folk, while the men chatted out on the porch, re-integrating the two groups easily from time to time, was delightful.

Delicious smells filled the air, as dishes came from the oven ready to eat, fresh gulf shrimp made by Gregg’s sister, Michelle. I had forgotten what fresh gulf shrimp was like, we have no comparison in the PNW where shrimp are concerned, and Michelle made this dish superbly with garlic, rosemary and thyme, and red pepper! Um umm! I wish I had another plateful now!

If it sounds like a dish from New Orleans, well yes, it is, she and Reed live there and brought the shrimp with them to share with everyone. What a treat!

Michelle and Reed, you are welcome at my house anytime. And she calls herself the Queen of leftovers!

I truly enjoyed getting to know all of the family better, Greg’s family that I barely knew. It was just delightful! I will be posting photos as soon as I get my camera batteries charged enough to download them and upload them here to share with everyone.
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June 15, 2005

It's an Amazing Life ....... Lilies in Full Orange

Lately I have been working in my studio throwing pots, and mixing glazes. I even tried to raku twice, but I am having trouble getting my kiln to temperature, can’t get it over 17oo and I need to go to 1830.
I have been writing someone who builds kilns about this, and I hope we can resolve this problem. It is so cool here; I wonder if that is why I can’t get it heated up good enough. I have been through a huge bottle of propane already with no pots to show for it.
Oh well, nothing comes too easy,
Speaking of things not coming easy, I am seeing light at the end of a carved out donut I have been milling around in forever. With so many deaths, divorce, teenagers, more teenagers, a man, menopause, well, go figure, times have been hard, but you know what? I have persevered, and I am becoming wise after all, Good thing we gain that, because it looks like we lose everything that was ever familiar, like a memory!
Actually my memory is returning. I have been learning the most incredible stuff, things that no therapist could tell me or help me with, no book wrote about, no pill could fix. (progesterone is a cream)
I practice Reiki, and coach, and through working with some people, I have been amazed at what I myself can see for them that they cannot see for themselves, and what I could not see for me.

I have been creating ways to deal with trauma, depression, worry, fear, anxiety, relationships, etc. I have a great track record with other people, and I see that what I glean from working with them, and sharing with friends has benefited me incredibly.

I may be older, but I am wiser, and closer to writing that first book (of many I have begun). I plan to take some classes to get better at throwing and working with glaze chemistry, maybe I will even go back to school for that grad degree after all!
Life is amazing, just when you think it totally sucks, puzzle pieces come together; bio identical hormones are made available, and BAM, as Batman says, WHEW, life is pretty good after all.
Ready for round 5?
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June 14, 2005

Clematis that took Over Seattle

I have a 2 year old clematis in a pot in the backyard. This year it sprouted about 40 blooms like this, over 7"across! Just amazed me, I can just imagine this thing planted in the ground, and about 7 years old. Headline! "The Clematis that took over Seattle!"clematisclem2
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The smallish leaf mixed in is Wisteria, also in the pot, but it has not bloomed. I think they bloom from new growth, and I keep pruning it back.

June 08, 2005

From Isaac Shapiro's Book, It Happens By itself. (Photos are mine)

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Excerpt from chapter one, I love this:

Yes, beautiful. Simply be. When attention wants to move from This that is unchanging, the moment you notice, simply return attention to yourself. Instant by instant, that’s all. Because through the senses, the entire universe is appearing in you. In This that you are, all time, all space, everything is appearing. Everything that is changing is appearing in That. All of eternity, every known universe, every known reality, every known galaxy is appearing in you. All the gods, all the heavens, all the hells, everything is appearing in you. To know You is to know the source of everything.

Information to order this book is at chapters end. Read on.......
Permission of Isaac Shapiro.
It Happens By Itself



Chapter 1

Namaskar, welcome to Satsang.

If there are any questions about peace, enlightenment, and freedom, please feel free to speak. Also, if there is any direct recognition and overflowing from This.

There are a few new people here tonight. Usually there is not much action, unless somebody says something. If you came looking for some entertainment, then you have to provide it. (laughter)

The invitation here is to know yourself. A simple invitation. As simple as it is, when you ask someone, “Who are you?” most people are confused. If this confusion has not finished for you and you would like some assistance, please feel free to ask and we can investigate together. You don’t have to believe anything. Be willing to look for an instant and see what happens in your own experience.

I went to a festival, and at it they had a bonfire. They invited us to write down what we wished for our lives, and throw it into the fire. I put in that I wanted to be guided by my intuition. When I go deep into meditation, I really enjoy it, but when I come out, I have a sense of losing it. Can you give me some insights on this?

We have the experience of feeling separate from God, from our intuition. There is confusion. We have a feeling that we want to step out of the confusion and be at peace, to know Truth for ourselves and to be happy. We think that if we can work, purify, and change ourselves, maybe someday we will be happy.

The only moment that you can ever be happy is this instant. That’s it. You cannot know Truth in the past or in the future.

How can we know Truth now? It is easy. All that we can give to anybody or anything is our attention. Check for yourself and see if this is true. Where your attention is, is what you experience. Correct?

If you put your attention on your toe, you experience your toe, if you put your attention on what you want, you experience longing, and if you put your attention on what is wrong, you experience wrongness or negativity. Where your attention is, is where you are giving all your energy to, in other words, what you are worshipping.
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Your attention has been running here and there, after this attraction, that perception, thought after thought, always looking for something to make you happy. Nobody was able to tell you how to be happy, therefore you tried to listen to your intuition, because you felt that you could listen to some wisdom inside yourself, and as a result, your life would be better, more in harmony.

Is it possible to say, “Well, I can do it myself?”

Normally, our attention is focused on our thinking, our perceptions, on evaluating and labeling. You meet somebody and evaluating happens. Can I trust him or her? Am I attracted? Etc, etc. The mind is playing.

Nobody gets the idea to bring their attention to who they are. This instant you are Here. The mind has been running, thought after thought, and we have never had the idea to bring our attention to its source from where thoughts arise.
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In this instant everything that exists is changing. However, these changes appear in Awareness, which is not changing. For example, there is space in this room. When we build walls, we have a room and the creation of inside and outside space. If we knock the walls down, the space is still here. It is unchanged whether the walls are here or not. Walls do not alter it. Space is space, but we don’t notice the space, correct?

We define it by something else.

We define it by what we sense. Different experiences appear — happiness, sadness, hot, cold, enjoying, suffering. These experiences come and go. Usually there is thinking; occasionally, not thinking. Every object is changing. Your experience is changing, your body is changing, and your thoughts are changing. Now, look in your own experience. Do you change? You were a young boy, and now you have the body of a man. Inside, do you sense yourself as different?

No.

You don’t feel different, and if you ask somebody who is eighty, they will tell you the same. Beliefs might have changed, the body is changing, yet the essence of you does not feel different at all. You are the same. Speak in this moment of your own experience of this which is unchanging, You.

I want to hear how you speak because up to now you have never spoken about this. Nobody ever invited you to speak about this, not your teachers nor your parents. Nobody invited you to speak about This that is unchanging. What is your experience?
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Love.

Yes, and you have been thinking that someone else is the source of love.

Yes.

This is what they sing about in country western songs; “looking for love in all the wrong places.” Most of us believe that love is outside of ourselves, and someone else is necessary for us to feel love. We do not know where to find love.

Now, This that is unchanging, what do you have to do for it?

To connect with it.

Who is connecting with it?

There is nothing in-between. Only getting rid of the hurdles.

What hurdles? What hurdles are there at this moment?

Nothing really. But when I go outside it might start.

Outside of where?

Outside of this space. Outside of love.

How can you go outside of love? Where does love end?

No, it does not end.

Okay. How are you going to go outside of love?

I’m getting distracted.

If I give you a diamond worth five billion dollars, will you forget where you keep it? If you have never had five billion dollars, will you go now and party and leave it on the beach somewhere?

No, no, no.

You won’t be distracted from this diamond.

I would run out of money very quickly. I’d give it to too many people.

This love you can give to as many people as you like; it can never run out. You cannot buy it for five billion dollars. Now, how can you get distracted from love?

Before you were distracted because you did not know love. You thought love came from women, and you were running after them, thinking that one of them is the source of love. Then when that did not work out, another one. Then trying to get the intuition, which one was the correct one, right? Where was love hiding?

Now it is not hiding. I love connecting with it.

There are no hurdles. There never were any. At this moment, you don’t recognize the value of what you have just now discovered. Once you know the secret, nothing can distract you from it. Old thoughts can come up, but they push you back to love, because every time you pick up a thought that hasn’t been seen through yet, it is so painful compared to this love. Once you have found love, you don’t want to kiss anything else.

Is it a matter of love neutralizing the effects of old thoughts? Not trying to shove anything away or leaving them, but neutralizing them?

By simply staying with love every old pattern, based on this idea of non-love, will come up and be seen to be love itself.

The love affair at this moment does not seem overwhelming. I imagined it as a huge experience. Also, it does not seem like it does not exist. It is sort of constant, like a hum.

What you are saying is beautiful. Some people experience themselves as peace, silence, nothing, or everything. The truth is, It cannot be named, and the danger is that people think the experience should be a particular way. You are speaking from your own experience. Once you listen to this hum, really listen to it, really be it, it fills everything. This is the beauty. If you only pay a little attention to it, then you only experience it a little. The more you kiss it, the more you love it, the more it loves you.
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Like during meditation in the morning?

This is permanent meditation. The experience you are speaking of now is about knowing who you are. What you are speaking about is Yourself, right? That which is unchanging, Here, always present. To be with Yourself is to be love, peace, and silence. Not as an idea, but actually, Now! This is the ultimate truth. There is none higher than this. This is the end of the search. Once you know this, you know everything. So simple.
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I will take that in.

Yes, beautiful. Simply be. When attention wants to move from This that is unchanging, the moment you notice, simply return attention to yourself. Instant by instant, that’s all. Because through the senses the entire universe is appearing in you. In This that you are, all time, all space, everything is appearing. Everything that is changing is appearing in That. All of eternity, every known universe, every known reality, every known galaxy is appearing in you. All the gods, all the heavens, all the hells, everything is appearing in you. To know You is to know the source of everything.

How do we construct our life around love in our daily activities?

Very clear question. Now I have to ask you from your own experience. This instant now, breathing is happening. Who is breathing?

My body.

Okay. Who is seeing?

Somehow seeing is happening.

What are you doing to see? What are you doing to breathe?

It is happening automatically.

Now, how is life happening?

I am initiating things.

Who is this I that is initiating? Let’s find this I now. At this moment, your head is shaking. Who is doing that?

The automatic.

But then we say, “I am doing everything.” This is arrogance, isn’t it? It is a lie.

Yes, I am not doing anything.

But we think that we are initiating, yes?

Yes.

Okay. Find out who is initiating.

In this moment, I am not initiating. Everything is happening, and love and support surround me.

Even this I that is surrounded by love, look at what this is. Up to now you have been imagining that you are somebody. When you simply keep your attention on the truth of yourself, on this “unchanging,” then all the habits to think a certain way will reveal themselves and show themselves to be mirages that give the appearance of suffering. You will find that daily life has always taken care of itself and will always take care.

As funny as that sounds, there is nothing you have to do, because you cannot control anything. There is not a you to do it! If you earnestly look for the you that is supposed to be doing everything, you will find there is nobody. This becomes your own experience that is absolutely unshakeable. Who is it that you think you are? Really check this out. You will make a fantastic discovery.

It is beautiful.

This is your first time in Satsang,and immediately you wanted to know. Beautiful! Somehow there has to be a ripeness to hear. If you have beliefs and are attached to them, then you cannot know this. When you are really willing to look for yourself, or if it happens by grace, then you realize! Once you know and you notice that different thoughts come up by themselves, you either keep returning to This that is unchanging, your own Self which is always present, or you investigate the thought/feeling and see if it is true and what you get for believing it.

You will find that something interesting starts to happen. We have a stream of thoughts, which gives the feeling there is something wrong and that you need to get or do something to be happy. For example, that you have to meditate and search, work on yourself, or some strategy to try to become happy.

The moment you keep quiet with who you are, what is needed? You bathe in the ocean of love. This is too simple for most people.

But we still do physical things.

Even when physical things are happening, there is awareness of no doer. Attention can stay with You. You can check this now. We can talk together, and by simply staying with You, the talking is happening in space. Somehow the whole perception of everything is different.

Yes, it is growing.

In one instant. Just like that.

There is a constant pressure from society. If you are talking to somebody they always want to know who you are. They want to know what you identify with. This could be a distraction.

Of course, it could be a distraction, but have you ever fallen in love with a woman?

Yeah, all the time.

When you fall in love with a woman, not much will distract you. Even eating and sleeping don’t distract you. You can only think of this person.

Not quite that much. But yeah. I did feel like cutting my whole day short.

This is a love affair with Truth.

Oh yeah, okay. (laughter)

Beautiful.

So falling in love with Love.

Falling in love with Love itself.

And then it is always there.

Of course.

Yes, in abundance.

You know the Secret.

Okay, ways to fall in love with yourself?

Just this instant. Any way is a distraction, because a way is a postponement. A way means not now but later, in other words, a postponement. To be in love with Love means to be it, walking down the street, eating, making love, and playing music. Everything, everything! You are simply Love Itself.

You can be in prison or in any circumstance; it does not stop you from this. Nothing can stop you from being with yourself. This is not dependent on time, place, circumstance, or anything else.

You may still be active, but you are with yourself. Then everything you say comes from that, and that shines through. Others may feel that and be attracted or not.

Thank you, that was good.

One correction, not “was” good, “is” good!

Oh, “is” good! Fine. That solves that. (laughter) Next.

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It is so beautiful here tonight.

Every night, no?

Yeah. Tonight I understood something. When I first met you and I sat with you the first two years, it was so beautiful, very strong. It was emptiness. There was no one here. It was continuously going into this nothing, and it is not like that now. It is full, and it is empty!
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